Gone

Everything seems to fall away
No matter how hard we try to hold on
It easily begins to slowly stray
Regardless of how close the bond

The only hope is that one day it shall return
Waiting on that day is pure pain
Maybe it will come back without a burn
Without the worry it will fade again

These tears that fall long for the past
Long for the moments that burned into my soul
Moments that I thought would always last
Yet a thief broke in and they were all stolen

Glimpses of hope and memories to smile by
Just sadden my heart and shatter it to pieces
Making me curl up to shake and cry
Appreciating and accepting those moments are on lease

JLK – 1/27/12

The Burn

Strike a match
And watch it burn
The flame lasts
And I never learn

It touches my skin
Leaving behind the pain
Letting it sink within
Never speaking of it again

I stumble and fall
Bringing everything down
Ready to give my all
Not caring what hits ground

So sick of being helpless
In this world I can’t control
With feelings of being hopeless
Of all the love that I have stole

I can’t give in and I can’t lose sight
Of what I feel is out there for me
That feeling of fear every night
For no one else to see

So I strike another match
Again I watch it burn
For the same length the flame lasts
And I will never begin to learn.

JLK - 7/19/11

Giving Up Control

To be held in the arms that love me
Knowing that I’m safe and secure
Feel that rush when I’m finally seen
It feels like the ultimate cure

Knowing what I’ve missed
Reassured it was worth the wait
To finally feel that first kiss
Will finally set my heart straight

Hands wrapped around my skin
Words sung into my ear
To know there is no chagrin
Knowing that with him there’s no fear

Losing all control giving my soul
Fully aware of wait I’m releasing
Giving up to him my full control
Letting him take what’s his for seizing

JLK 6/27/11

Blue Skies

Try to sell me my dreams
But the price is too high
Reality is never what it seems
While the future floats by

I reach for the clouds
You smack my hand away
It fills my head with doubt
When all I want is you to stay

I build my faith in fantasy
Work myself up for the fall
Reality is only what we see
Do hopes & dreams exist at all

My mind drifts to better days
When nothing falls or crumbles
Back to days where I was amazed
To days when I ran without a stumble

Sell me my hopes in a ziplock bag
Keep my dreams locked up tight
Don’t let life be such a drag
Let them see the sun shine bright

Release it into the open sky for me
Please never let me fall away
Don’t lock me up and throw away the key
Guarantee me that we’ll never fray


JLK 6/27/11

Second Chance

It’s all been said before
The same old song and dance
Leaves me broken on the floor
A fool who gives a second chance

Nothing can erase the doubts
That fills this weary heart & head
Wondering what this is all about
Where my heart should be instead

I sit back and watch the world pass by
Never knowing what the future will hold
So I sit and stare up at the blue cloudless sky
Remembering the lies I’ve been told

Did I make a mistake in believing once more?
Did I stumble right into the trap that has been set?
What does my future have in store?
Can I really trust in love or expect a truckload of regret?

JLK 6/16/11

Thought Process

Locked all day in thoughts of you

Memories of everything comes thrusting through



As I sit so far away

Wondering of that day



When the bottom falls out

When I learn what heartache is about



The day I swallow my pain and watch you smile

When I see her walk as a bride down your aisle



The day your child is finally born

I sit alone all tattered and torn



These are my thoughts of the future of you without me

Lately these visions are all I can see



So you ask why I think too much and not just let it flow

Because I can’t bear to think of the day I have to let you go



To not have you as the beacon in my life

For you to take another as your wife



It is my world’s greatest fear

For now I’ll have to switch gears



Turn off my thinking cap and focus on another

Begin a new life, possibly take a new lover



I’d wait for you until breath no longer passed through my lips

For the chance of your hands to lay upon me like a death grip



Just wish you had enough love to give you the power to move

Wish I had the chance cause I guarantee you would not lose



JLK 6/17/11

Picking Up The Pieces

Did I get wrapped up in the illusion of it all
Did I believe all the wrong words
How did I manage not to die in this fall
Instead just end up shattered and disturbed

Now I feel as if everything that was said was a lie
That everything I knew about you was a hoax
I sit and question everything wondering why
I always thought we were so close

I feel like such a fool believing you
Yet you were and still are a good friend
Now I sit here curious if it’s all through
Picking up these pieces alone in the end

Was it all just mirrors and smoke
Was I just a pawn in this game
I never thought what we were was a joke
I know we will never be the same

JLK 2/22/11