Fearless

My heart breaks
Knowing that you know
How my heart aches
And is afraid to grow

You’ve known all along
How I ache to sit here
All these years alone
Feeling like you didn’t care

My secret is out
The pain illuminated
No need to mope about
Or to feel suffocated

All this loneliness
That was buried within
Released with the bitterness
No longer guilty as sin

Always hiding in the shadows
Afraid to be seen and heard
Forever staring out the windows
Lines no longer blurred

It’s not a crime to cry
To want to belong
To not have to ask why
Or worry to be wrong

To be welcomed with open arms
Not to fear of what is thought
To be able to be calm
To fall and know you’ll be caught

Yet I’m still sad that you knew
And didn’t offer a hand
To know you see it from my view
That someone understands

I wouldn’t have to feel alone
The pain so deep I sobbed
Yet with the pain I have grown
And still I feel robbed

I could’ve been fearless
I learned how on my own
There is no bitterness
For how you have helped me grow

JLK
9/18/09