Where there's a will...

I’m not entirely proud of what we’ve become
The possibility of everything we’ve built coming undone
It scares me to the deepest corner of my soul
The future laid out in front of us - the great unknown

To know that my importance isn’t a daily thing
Or so it can somehow possibly seem
Pondering how much you want me there with you
Is a question I can’t seem to get an answer to

It feels like I’m infatuated & obsessed that’s true
But when you know what you want, what else can you do
So you wait, consider the future and hope for the best
Yet your brain doesn’t allow you time to rest

I know the passion, the want, the desire is there
I know there is some sort of love; a definite care
Yet I question this nightly if it can ever see the light of day
The only answer I come up with is: “If there’s a will there’s a way”.

© 9/29/10 JLK

Enjoy the View

I see a mirror of myself when I look at you
Wondering how this ever became to be true
Stepping deeper and deeper into this mess
It’s something I never considered I must confess

Looking back into our history
So many mistakes I can now see
Never started soon enough or took the bait
Now I see it full circle it’s all too late

Shot for the moon and landed among the stars
Never imagined I’d be so close yet so far
The past is just that painfully just the past
The future is out before us just hoping we’ll last

Looking in the mirror at myself and seeing you
Taking a step back and enjoying the view
Just a little time is all I think I’ll need
To get away from you and get back to me

© JLK 9/23/10

You'll Haunt Me

Certain words should not have been spoken
Words should not have been said
Then hearts wouldn’t be broken
Thoughts wouldn’t have entered this head

It’s amazing the words you tend to believe
The words you’ve always wanted to hear from those lips
How the simplest words can definitely deceive
And breakdown the closest of friendships

Ignorance is bliss and I never truly understood
How a heart can shatter into thin air
And it can never be put back together the way it should
Not even with the utmost care

My heart ached for those feelings and thoughts
Especially from that one “perfect” soul
I’ll never know what time has made me lost
Guess I’ll never have the chance to fully know

© JLK 9/14/10

Soaring

I know what I want and I can tell you what I need
It doesn’t matter though because you only see what you see

Things are up and outside of me living and breathing on their own
I can’t believe how far I’ve come and gone setting myself on loan

The way we move and weave into one another’s soul
Is a story too amazing to ever possibly be told

I know what I want and what I need getting there is a whole other tale
To become who we truly need to be without putting ourselves on sale

© JLK 9/10/10

Hidden Away

Our love sits hidden deep in the dark

It sits alone and still in there

Not allowed to shine or dare to spark

It seems as if you don’t care



Not given the chance to know who you are

It sits and festers within me

Curious if we can ever or will this be a scar

That only I will be able to feel or see



The both of us made this what it has become

I cannot help to continue to wonder

What lives would we have – what would we have done

I feel like this is definitely my life’s largest blunder



I wonder if I’m ever going to be worth that chance

I continuously doubt I will ever be

Knowing I am worth that dance

And desperately wanting it to be you and me



©JLK 8/21/10

Where Am I Suppose To Be?

Laying in his arms thinking of you
Wishing it was you instead
Wondering what I have to do
To remove you from my heart and head

Regretting so many things undone
Wanting to make it all right again
So many songs left unsung
Everything broken that needs to mend

I know who we are and where we stand
Wish it could be so different from where we are
I hope this is something you understand
I’ll continue hoping and wishing on this star

I continue to lay in his arms wishing they were yours
My heart breaks every moment I’m there
Wondering where I will be and what life has in store
Kicking myself for taking so long to get here


© JLK 8/22/10

Breakage

My heart breaks apart a little each day
Never knowing the right or wrong thing to say

Wondering if there is ever a chance to make it right
Or should I just walk away and give up this fight

Should we stand still and remain where we are
Is there any luck wishing on a falling star

I don’t know how to throw in the towel with you
Questioning if I should give up and be through

Cause even though my heart breaks each day
You can build it right back up right away

My heart breaks apart a little each day
Always wondering if “I love you” is okay to say

©JLK 8/12/10

Intertwined

I know who I am; I know who you are
Our souls wandered into one another
Amongst the falling stars
Somehow we found each other

By fate or destiny our lives crashed into one
Colliding our lives; intertwining our paths
Underneath the rising and setting sun
Putting the inevitable out of our grasp

Under the same moonlight
We walk, laugh and play
Within the daylight
We move and think the same way

I know who I am; I know who you are
Our souls intertwined the moment we spoke
Somehow born from the same star
Somehow inevitably broke

7/9/10
© JLK

Sadness

There is a sadness in my eyes
Not hidden anymore
Questioning truth or lies
Trying to settle the score

My heart breaks for paths not taken
I ache for someone to get me
Not let my life be one more mistake
For someone to finally see

I know I cannot change it
I can’t alter what is not mine
Right now nothing seems to fit
Something I can’t seem to find

Yet the sadness remains
I can’t find my way out
It seems it will all be the same
Nothing to cry about

© 5/17/10 JLK

In Too Deep

Sucked in too deep
I don’t know what to do
But try and sleep
With the thoughts of you

Circling my head
Trying not to dream
Yet it happens again
Viewing nothing as it will be

My heart wanders on turning the page
Wondering what will be
When I reach the end of this daze
Will I ever end up happy

So I move on and I’ll make it through
More nights trying to fight
Not wanting more dreams of you
No more dreams, not tonight

© 3/13/10
JLK

Wishes

I’ve made some wrong choices
Chose the wrong paths
Silenced my voice
Struggled through the aftermath

My heart has paid the hefty price
My questionable future as well
We all have our vices
I feel as if I’m under a spell

Locked in a few years too late
Trying to make right what is wrong
I fear I’ve sealed my fate
It took me too long

The choices are set in stone
My heart does continue to mend
So I’ll figure this out alone
Throwing wishes to the wind

© 3/15/10
JLK

Space

Here in the dark as I try to sleep
The words wrap around me

Cradling me inside of them
As if they were your arms

Holding me close as I breathe in
Thinking of this curse and our sins

I know what I feel, I believe you too
But my heart is breaking that’s the solid truth

So I lay here in the dark
Waiting for that spark

Your fingers to touch my skin
Awake me from deep within

But alone I lay with the sadness in my heart
The tears they comfort me yet I’m still torn apart

So the words you send comfort me
As I think of what will never be

My heart yearns to know you
To be connected more that’s true

But I will always be the one that got away
And you will always be the one that strayed

© JLK 3/3/10

Numb

Differences may keep us apart
But as I lay in bed alone in the dark

My heart yearns to be next to yours
Through the space between my mind soars

Imagining a day where I can be free
Where nothing comes between you and me

Yet I know deep down that day will never come
And following my heart is making me numb

© JLK – 3/3/10