Giving Up Control

To be held in the arms that love me
Knowing that I’m safe and secure
Feel that rush when I’m finally seen
It feels like the ultimate cure

Knowing what I’ve missed
Reassured it was worth the wait
To finally feel that first kiss
Will finally set my heart straight

Hands wrapped around my skin
Words sung into my ear
To know there is no chagrin
Knowing that with him there’s no fear

Losing all control giving my soul
Fully aware of wait I’m releasing
Giving up to him my full control
Letting him take what’s his for seizing

JLK 6/27/11

Blue Skies

Try to sell me my dreams
But the price is too high
Reality is never what it seems
While the future floats by

I reach for the clouds
You smack my hand away
It fills my head with doubt
When all I want is you to stay

I build my faith in fantasy
Work myself up for the fall
Reality is only what we see
Do hopes & dreams exist at all

My mind drifts to better days
When nothing falls or crumbles
Back to days where I was amazed
To days when I ran without a stumble

Sell me my hopes in a ziplock bag
Keep my dreams locked up tight
Don’t let life be such a drag
Let them see the sun shine bright

Release it into the open sky for me
Please never let me fall away
Don’t lock me up and throw away the key
Guarantee me that we’ll never fray


JLK 6/27/11

Second Chance

It’s all been said before
The same old song and dance
Leaves me broken on the floor
A fool who gives a second chance

Nothing can erase the doubts
That fills this weary heart & head
Wondering what this is all about
Where my heart should be instead

I sit back and watch the world pass by
Never knowing what the future will hold
So I sit and stare up at the blue cloudless sky
Remembering the lies I’ve been told

Did I make a mistake in believing once more?
Did I stumble right into the trap that has been set?
What does my future have in store?
Can I really trust in love or expect a truckload of regret?

JLK 6/16/11

Thought Process

Locked all day in thoughts of you

Memories of everything comes thrusting through



As I sit so far away

Wondering of that day



When the bottom falls out

When I learn what heartache is about



The day I swallow my pain and watch you smile

When I see her walk as a bride down your aisle



The day your child is finally born

I sit alone all tattered and torn



These are my thoughts of the future of you without me

Lately these visions are all I can see



So you ask why I think too much and not just let it flow

Because I can’t bear to think of the day I have to let you go



To not have you as the beacon in my life

For you to take another as your wife



It is my world’s greatest fear

For now I’ll have to switch gears



Turn off my thinking cap and focus on another

Begin a new life, possibly take a new lover



I’d wait for you until breath no longer passed through my lips

For the chance of your hands to lay upon me like a death grip



Just wish you had enough love to give you the power to move

Wish I had the chance cause I guarantee you would not lose



JLK 6/17/11